No need to cry for help.

2019.01.06
I wonder if you see the glow in me?
I wonder if you can see right through me?
I wonder if you can see the little things i do for you? At least even matter a little to you.
I guess one thing i didnt fail was hiding my pain. The same pain that i caused you.
Perhaps sometimes ive succeeded to forget the hurtful times and managed to remove unwanted memories but the pain were still inside of me. Believe me,  i tried my hardest.
But im not giving up yet.  Im still at peace with my inner demons. Ignoring the whispers of guilt and ghosts. Still battling the war in my head alone. I hope you never see this version of me. Remember me the way who you want me to be.